April 21, 2009

• Surprising list

  You have to know the man to understand my surprise.  I lay here in my bed with a blistering headache.  Crying and wondering why I have no energy and why I cannot seem to go on the way I used to.  Out of the blue sky my husband scolds me and says that it’s no wonder after all that I have been through in the last four years.  Four years?  I have to think and I look at him in bewilderment.  What does he mean by that.  After all it has only been life that has been going on in the last four years and not only to me, right?  Then comes the surprise,  my husband lists happenings that I have put out of my mind.  Things that should, to me, no longer be a factor in my life.  But to him are all the reasons why his wife isn’t the dynamo that she used to be, and that’s reason enough for him and let no one argue about it, least of all me. 

   As I lay here in his arms and felt the strength, the courage, and the forgiveness coming from him.  I cannot help but know that this is what the phrase “two in one flesh” is all about. That all of those things that I am supposed to have gone through are just parts of my life and things that I willingly, I hesitate to say suffer, for my family.  While my husband silently watches and sustains and stands between me and what he can so that I can do just that, suffer willingly for my family.  But, somehow I don’t feel like I have suffered anything.  And now, reflecting on these happenings in our lives, especially in the past four years, which have been particularly difficult, I see that the reason that I have not really suffered is that God has given me a partner who has been the other half of my “two in one flesh” and has helped and sustained so that the joys have been that much more joyful and the low times haven’t been anywhere as bad as they could have been had he not been there with me. 

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