Month: September 2010

  • For my friend with the Hat

     

    Mending Wall by Robert Frost

    Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
    That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
    And spills the upper boulders in the sun,
    And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
    The work of hunters is another thing:
    I have come after them and made repair
    Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
    But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
    To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
    No one has seen them made or heard them made,
    But at spring mending-time we find them there.
    I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
    And on a day we meet to walk the line
    And set the wall between us once again.
    We keep the wall between us as we go.
    To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
    And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
    We have to use a spell to make them balance:
    'Stay where you are until our backs are turned!'
    We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
    Oh, just another kind of out-door game,
    One on a side. It comes to little more:
    There where it is we do not need the wall:
    He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
    My apple trees will never get across
    And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
    He only says, 'Good fences make good neighbors'.
    Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
    If I could put a notion in his head:
    'Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
    Where there are cows?
    But here there are no cows.
    Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
    What I was walling in or walling out,
    And to whom I was like to give offence.
    Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
    That wants it down.' I could say 'Elves' to him,
    But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
    He said it for himself. I see him there
    Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
    In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
    He moves in darkness as it seems to me~
    Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
    He will not go behind his father's saying,
    And he likes having thought of it so well
    He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors."

  • You asked if I was happy

    When I was a child some of my most vivid memories consist of my smalll, soft hand slipping into your rasping calloused hand.  I remember my face cupped in your palm and you brushing my cheek with your thumb.

    On my wedding day you took my hand in your same calloused hand and walked me up the aisle.  When we got to the altar you took my hand and placed it into another calloused hand and another calloused thumb brushed the back of my hand.

    When I was young and I was bad, you loved me, no matter what.  You were hurt, you were sad and disappointed but your love never failed.

    On my wedding day you put my hand into the hand of a man who is the same way.

    Through the early years of our marriage I have hurt him, disappointed him and been downright bad, but his love has never failed.

    Am I happy? No, my heart is so full of joy and contentment and thankfulness there is no room for happiness.

  • Some simple truths

    I realized something yesterday, or rather I was kicked in the face with something that I already knew and God decided it was the day to make me wake up and smell the dirty diaper, so to speak.  Avoidance doesn't mean that you are healing, it just means that you are....avoiding.

    Yesterday was the first day in almost a year that I haven't had any schoolwork to do.  I am currently waiting for my next semester to start.  So after getting up and doing the usual round of  Monday morning chores, housework, laundry, and thinking of something wonderful to fix for supper, I attacked my much neglected sewing room in preparation for using it.  MK and Melissa were both in the middle of projects and Layn was down for a nap so all seemed right with my world.

    I could not sew! I could not settle! All I could do was check to see that Layn was asleep, or so I kept telling myself.  I must have made one hundred trips to the bottom of the stairs to listen for an sound of him.  When he was awake I clung to him as if I had never held him in my life. 

    Last night in bed I cried myself to sleep.  I scolded myself and tried to reason with myself but to no avail.  The past is past and now is now.  Layn is not going to die in his sleep and if he were to my sewing or not sewing isn't going to infleunce it one way or the other.  Nor did my sitting at the sewing machine five years ago cause that other child to take her last breath.  God calls and I cannot change a thing. 

    Today Melissa is at work and MK is making mincemeat so I am on my own with Layn.  I can do one of two things today, give in to my fear and spend the day with him in my arms and not accomplish anything except feed my fear or I can face it and learn that truth is truth and I am stronger (I hope) than the demons that plague my mind.

    Pray for strenght and sanity.

  • The Simple Womans Daybook 27 September 2010

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    Outside my window....it is cool and dark and cloudy.  The nice fall weather is back.  Over the weekend we enjoyed temps. in the 60's and nice breezes.  It is even beginning to smell like autumn out there.

    I am thinking....of possibilities since school is out for a few weeks, of hopes and dreams now that I have time to hope and dream, and of family members far and near as my love for them over flows in my heart.

    I am thankful for...the end of the current semester and the time that I have to enjoy doing and accomplishing other things. 

    From the schoolroom....Matthew will continue his education, I begin teaching my fifth grade religion class this coming Thursday, and Mary-Kate will be starting her college classes a week from tomorrow.  There is always something to be learning and someone to be teaching.

    From the kitchen....believe it or not all of the food that I cooked last week is gone and then some.  I will definitely have to come up with something good for supper.

    I am wearing....long johns and a hoody.  It is getting to be chilly in the mornings around here.

    I am creating....up a storm!!!!! I have all kinds of potential projects floating around in my head and a long list of UFO's to be finished.  I think this week will be taken up with clearing the workroom of unfinished projects so that new ones will have room.

    I am going....to spend as much time as possible at home.  A trip to the fabric store is on the list for this week to stock up on some essentials and the new engine for the Blazer has to be picked up but I hope that is all.

    I am reading....there is another area of potential for me in the coming weeks.  First I hope that the volume of Robert Frost that I ordered from Amazon comes soon because I have such a hankering for some good Robert Frost.  Then who knows what I will get into.

    I am hoping...that the list in my head and the time that I have to execute it are about equal to each other.  I know reality however and the list will far exceed the amount of time that I have.

    I am hearing....Doug and Matthew in quiet conversation, Mary-Kate and Melissa in the workroom chatting with each other, and the clock over my shoulder ticking the time away.

    Around the house....the mess is calling and I am shutting out the noise, the laundry is screaming at me and I am plugging my ears.  I am sure that there are many pressing jobs that need doing and I am in my own little haze...just a few more minutes please.

    One of my favorite things....sitting here sorting through my life and my family.  Letting the sources of my contentment sift down through my mind and warming me and washing over me wrapping around me like a favorite quilt.

    A few plans for the rest of the week.....get the little things out of the way so that I can focus on the rest of the things.  Mind the important things so that the unimportant things can take care of themselves.

    Here is a picture thought that I am sharing with you...

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    How many mothers have sons who come home from the range and present them with little souvenirs like this?  Matthew shot a .22 slug through this .22 shell at 50'  I think I will put this on a chain and keep it on my key ring.

     

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    Last week on Friday the temperature got up into the 90's.  Away went our beautiful fall weather. 

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    Today we are back to fall with temps into the 50's and a cool breeze blowing.  Today Layn is fully clothed!!!!

  • A good day's work

    I remember the days last spring as if it was yesterday when Mary-Kate, Matthew, Doug and I all planted the seed potato.  I remember the days spent in the garden running the rototiller to work up the ground so that the plants can be hilled.  Best of all I can remember the anticipation in the middle of June when I dug the first hills in the hopes of our first meal of new potatoes.

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    This week Mary-Kate started the arduous task of digging the potatoes that we have grown.  Today she and Doug spent the day digging and about half the job is finished.

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    Now these potatoes have to be left here to dry.  Then we sort them picking out any that were nicked by the spade where they were dug up, pack them into feed sacks and store them away in the pantry to be eaten.  That is a pile of good eating for this family.

  • HE DID IT!!!!!!!

    It's no longer heresay we have digital evidence!

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    Matthew changing Layn's diaper.

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    Layn looks a bit unimpressed but I can assure you that the women folk in this house are very impressed.  Next time Layn can you present him with a pooey one?

  • Something only a man can explain

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    There sits a perfectly good log splitter..... 

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    technically this is a perfectly good wood splitter also.....

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    so is this.

    So why do we own the expensive hydraulic, tractor driven one?

     

  • The Simple Womans Daybook 20 September 2010

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    Outside my window...it is cool and dark and too early to tell what the weather is going to be like today.  The weatherman promises a cool sunny day.  We'll see if he is right or not.

    I am thinking....about home and family and all the pleasure that can be derived from time spent together.  My husband spent the whole weekend totally spoiling me.  He will never really know how much I needed that or how much I love him for it.

    I am thankful for...cool temperatures and sunsets, golden fields and the smell of wood smoke.

    From the schoolroom...this is finals week for me and another week seven for Matthew.

    From the kitchen....I think that something gourmet is going to be in order tonight but I don't exactly know what it is yet. 

    I am wearing....jammies folks, jammies.  Way too early for anything else and that may be the way of things for the whole day.  To quote my dad, "what do you think of them apples?"

    I am creating...castles in the sky, fantasies in my mind, music in my soul, and stars in my eyes.

    I am going....nowhere fast!!! and I like it that way. Matthew and Mary-Kate can use my car to go wherever they want today. I don't need it and I don't want it.

    I am reading.....The Complete Works of Tennyson.  I feel the need for some poetic food for my soul.

    I am hoping....in the hope that never fails.

    I am hearing.....the sounds of the house in the morning, the sounds of the world in my head and the murmurings of my heart.

    Around the house....it is an utter disaster which to me is a sign that all who dwell here had an enjoyable weekend.

    One of my favorite things....the smell of a baby's neck, the taste of a small child's kiss, a sticky hug, and the sight of exhausted and contented slumber.

    A few plans for the rest of the week....schoolwork, holy hour on Tuesday, schoolwork, babysit Layn, holy hour on Friday, gun show this weekend with Matthew and Brett, and loving and contented time with my husband and the rest of the family.

    Here is a picture thought that I am sharing with you...

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    A few signs of the season...the pumpkins that Mary-Kate and Layn harvested on Friday.  Come one, come all they are for sale!

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    A beautiful shot of Ian's cornfield with a stormy fall sky behind it.  The contrasts in color are what make fall such a spectacular time of year around here.

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    Saturday evening one of our local hot air balloons landed in the field behind the elementary school up the road.  Doug and I jumped in the car and chased it as it flew over head and watched as it landed.

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    Doug helped the crew fold up the balloon and pack it and the basket away in the truck for another day.  Such a beautiful sight.  Not too many days go by in the summer that we don't see two or three of these go overhead.  One day I am going to take a ride in one of these.