April 21, 2009
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What a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, I went to the surgeons office today all ready to have them do the biopsies (not!). I get called into the examining room and put on the little paper gown, whoever invented them should be boiled in oil and then made to wear one while walking backward down a crowded street. I sat on the exam table for what seemed like an hour and then the dr. came in and shook my hand. Another barbaric custom. There you sit half naked and they smile at you and want to shake your hand. Anyway, he talked to me about the pictures and the ultrasound that I had done last week. Then he took a detailed history and did a breast exam. When he got done he declared that there were no lumps, bumps, or masses there that he could feel. (no kidding, me either) So then he sat down and we discussed my options. Now the biopsy is rescheduled for next Tuesday and I have a list of options. Do I feel better, NO!!! All I feel is frustrated that nothing is happening and we are no closer to an answer about what is going on here. But, I do have a list of options. As this point my feeling is to take them both off and be done with it. I can’t have anymore kids so I really don’t need them anymore. Contrary to what other women feel, my parts don’t define me as a person or as a woman, so I really can do without them. Let’s just get this show on the road and get it over with so that I can go on with my life. Limbo is not a place it is a method of torture.
Comments (7)
got you in my prayers, heart sister!
Oh, my, what an emotional roller coaster! I’ll pray for you. ((hugs!))
And AMEN on those horrid gowns!
I hold you close in my prayers. I can’t imagine how awful it is to just play the waiting game. Hugs!
That’s awful!! I would hate the waiting too… I will still be praying for you….
So true…….a place of torture. Hope yours ends soon, and the outcome is good.
Praying for you. Going through a similar situation with my mother I can surely understand… You have really gone through it this year, you have a great attitude though…Even through your kidding words and honesty, you have a great attitude, it’s so great we serve a loving Father who holds us and takes care of us through these times…
Arghh — I ache for you.
Praying as always. Trusting for all the comforts of Christ for you and yours.
I’ve had several friends go through this so if you need resources, just ask.
And you could probably make a bundle if you’d custom design a better gown.